i finally said something to someone today about some things and it didnt go over too well. it made me feel like everyone was out to get me. i did not want to ruin the friendship and i did not want to ruin things between tim and i. at the same time i did not really want to hurt anyone. it took me a while to figure out what was bothering me and how to say it. but thanks to tim and mom i was able to get the courage to say something today. i had to say it though. i couldnt pretend everything was going to be right this weekend. at first i wanted tim to deal with it but then he refused. he said that it was my place. i also refused to believe that, but it was true. he is amazing guy. i am learning a lot from him. Being patient being understanding dont rush into things think before i talk. i am sorry that i hurt someone but i couldnt let it go without saying something.